For my Anabella Rose

Only one more week til the big day. I can't believe it is here already. I sat in church today making an emotional mess of myself with tears rolling down my cheeks and making unwanted water spots on my cute dress. Dave was home with sick little miss and so I had church to myself today. I was able to sit and ponder about my last week with Allisandria alone as mother and my first child.  She and I have been both sick this past week so we have each had our share of onry moments. Allisandria especially has been difficult. Being extra sensitive with her feelings and such. Obedience and the lack there of. That is when I began to cry today in sacrament meeting.  I didn't want to spend the last week alone with her getting mad and her crying all the time.  I wonder if she scences her world as the only child changing?  I just love her so much but I am so excited for Anabella to come into this world. I can't wait to see her and see who and what she looks like.  I am also ready to get on with it. You know just getting over the anticipation of going from one kid to two.  I know I am going to still love allisandria, but how am I going to equally love another? I know it is possible. The lord has me in mind.  If he can love all his children then surely I can love my two. It is just the fear of the unknown.  I don't want Pia to think we don,t love her. I don,t know.  Just horemones and such.
  Well anabella is coming into a home full of love. I am excited to give her all the little gifts I have made for her.  I embroidered her name on all these burp cloths pictured. I love my machine. I am thankful for my artistic talent that I am able to free hand such cute letters to embroider with my machine. Dave was proud of me.  It is nice when he admires me. It makes me feel good. Anywho, I am excited to have a small, crying, pooping, and eating little girl that smells so sweet of baby lotion. Wish me luck

Xoxo, Tricia