The best me

Today was hard and good.. Weird. That seems kind of counter productive. Oh well, it is what it is. It's not fun having the muscles in your lower back wrap themselves so tightly around my spine whatever else is in there that I can practically hear screams coming from within tying to break free from being crushed. I know what it feels like to have something crushed. Trust me, it's no fun. Dealing with this pain for three days now got me thinking.
1. I don't have time for this crap. I'm a busy stay at home mom who also runs two busy businesses. If even one day goes not as planned, anxiety creeps in and craps all over my mind.
2. My 5 year old really knows how to step up to the plate and be a special helper. She has picked things up for me that I cannot bend down and lift, she has put her sister down for a nap accompanied by a pre-nap story, tucks her in and gives her a kiss, tries to pick up Greyson for me so I can meet her halfway, it's a little easier, since he is the reason why I'm in this predicament
3. Anabella really knows how to abuse the situation while I'm trying to rest in bed she sneaks out of her room and has a hay day in the living room with her baby stuff for about 45 minutes when she is supposed to be napping, only to be caught be her sister who then quotes "Bella! Get in bed! 1...2...3..." She is a little sass. I need a yard stick close by so I can whack her cause she has kept her distance when she feels the need to tick her tongue out at me or call me a bad mommy for laying on the couch and not playing with her. Oh dear.
4. Greyson knows how to do the iPad. Enough said.
5. I have a dear friends who knows how to make things better :) Karla, Michael, and Marideth.

5. The most important, is that I am reminded once again, how much my sweet husband loves me. Coming home from work early two days in a row to help me lift, clean and wipe butts (not mine ;)), give me massages, draw me Epsom salt baths and just simply watching out for me.

I realized how much time I spend not focusing on my kids. How much time I busy myself with working and thinking about work. I don't like that. I feel that a long break is gonna happen after the holiday boutiques are done. Something's gotta give right now and realizing how busy life is when you have akid in school is absolutely crazy. I don't have time to do anything else but love my kids. At least that is how it should be. I know when I take those little moments to fly airplanes with grey or wink at Bella while she puts on her shoes backwards for the millionth time, or try not to watch PIA while she pretends she is making YouTube makeup videos or taking the time to kiss my husband, I knw that's right where I'm supposed to be, that is when I am the best me.