I just want to hide

There's not sayin how hard it can be with a two year old.  Man she totally is in a funk right now.  She is such a sweet and funny girl, but when I am busy doing something that takes my attention away from her, she turns on the sass.  She can be so naughty. Screaming, getting her stool out to reach something she isn't suppposed to have.  Hitting me and Bella.  It is so hard not to just beat the kid.  Yesturday and today I had a bit of a melt down.  She was horrible all day yesturday until dinner time.  Family home evening was a dream and she said a beautiful prayer. Today started out good, then she proceeded to get into the fridge and drop the glass bottle of rice vinegar on the floor.  It was everywhere not to mention the shattered glass.  I freaked!  I didn't lay a finger on her, but the montser that I wish didn't exist came out.  I cried after my roar.  I cleaned up the mess while allisandria kept saying thru tears, "mommy okay."  I assured her I was okay,cleaned it up and we left to have a better time swimming.  From that time on, she had my undivided attention.  She was a sweet girl today minus the vinegar incident, much better than yesterday.  I have never felt so drained before without doing physical activiy.  So much energy goes into getting mad...that's why it is not good to hold grudges and better to forgive.  I need to put the monster in the dungeon and lock the door and throw away they key.  I don't want my child to evr look at me the way she did when I yelled at her ever again.


Xoxo, Tricia